Day #17 It’s okay to admit that life gets hard sometimes.- #28daysofselflove

 It’s okay to admit that life gets hard sometimes.

Life has been unusually hard lately. 2020. Covid. Quarantine. Death. Sickness. Loss. Grief. Instability. It’s been hard.

And I am not the type of person to shy away from hard. I’m kinda use to hard. In all honesty I kinda like hard because when things get hard I go harder. But this has been different. It’s a different type of hard these days.

At times I feel engulfed in fear of the instability of life. All of my roots have been uplifted and I really don’t have the pillars that held everything up before. Things that made sense are now confusing and I question the things that I was so sure about before.

In the past when things got hard it would be hard to wait it out and see how the end would be. I would get impatient and often fall short. But in the end it would still all work out. And I would regret not holding out just a little while longer.

These days it’s harder to see things through because I feel the weight of of everything all the time.

And I usually end up with some pretty amazing results when I don’t crumble under the fear of the unknown.